Why I Write

In case you haven't yet noticed, I'm a writer (really I don't know how you wouldn't have noticed, do I sound like a plumber?). I'm not quite a blogger yet, although I would like to be. I write.

Stories, blog posts, ideas, reviews, experiences, observations. I am a writer.

At my fingertips I hold the key and the strokes necessary to build entire worlds. With one idea I can form a new person with new life. I can become anything -- a military officer from another dimension, a girl dancing through uncertainty, a boy who loves the sea, a Coast Guard, a traveler, a wanderer, a warrior.

I can become someone whole.

With words I breathe fire, I kindle hope. With words I can create rather than destroy. With my words I can renew my life on my worst days when I feel most melancholy. And in my grief, I can find joy in the midst of heartache.

I can remind myself that no matter where I am, no matter what I think, I am enough.

If the worst should happen, if I were to fall into a seemingly endless cycle of depression, when it feels like words cannot escape my soul, when feels as though I cannot ask for help, for love, for joy... I write. I write characters who are outside myself and I pour as much of myself and the parts I didn't know were rebuilding. With words I can rebuild what I thought was once was broken.

I can fill what once was hollow. I can sing a new song that spells of joy. No matter how brief, this life I find is what drives me forward, what wakes me up. It's what helps me through my darkest and worst days.

I write to love, forgive, release. To let go and surrender to the flow, to God.

When I am too afraid to ask for help, writing gives me peace.

To me, words are a blessing from God. They are his reminder that no matter how weak I feel there is always more unsaid to discover. There is always a rainbow over the darkened clouds. There is always a lioness inside, being shaped, not destroyed, by the storm.

I write for others. So they can know that. So they can know all of this. I write what I observe, I write the best and worst aspects of my humanity and of others. I write characters people can fall in love with, characters I learn to love before I bring them forward. I write stories that can bring people light, that bring people fire.

I write stories that serve a greater purpose, stories that remind others to learn to fall in love with life. That remind others there is always more to discover in this world, and more to discover about other people.

I write to remind you that you are never alone. No matter what you think. You are stronger than you know. You can shape your entire world, shift the particles in the air and the foundations of who you are with the syllables on your tongue. You are a walking story, a breathing light. You are never alone.

I write so I can remember who I am, and what the world is. So I can remember that the words in my story were fueled by a loving God, one who cared enough about me to wrap me in his cloak of love, a love so bold and daring it would cross the peaks of heaven.

But most of all I write to remind myself where the light is and there is always a reason to be happy.

Thank you. I hope you're staying safe. I hope these words bring you peace or happiness today.